12-12-2021, 01:37 AM
I didnt know I wrote about my health on here. Between this and the shock of some extremely upsetting notes I found I wrote on Fetlife (Wasnt my idea to join. I find the site depressing) I realize I have been really fucked up and just getting worse but losing memory of important medical history. I need to copy these and stuff from Fetlife and take to my doctors again.
Was in the ER 8 times this year. Not related to COVID. 2 was due to almost dying. The last one was the first time I heard my dad cry because he thought I was which they lead me to believe. 5 of them was due to another doctor fuck up. I did legal reasons wish I went one time but didnt because Im stupid. (Long story and most I cant talk about but I likely was almost murdered too. Its a long story. But this forum isnt encrypted. That had nothing to do with my health issues. ER would have been needed for evidence).
Fetlife notes that I didnt know exists let me know my neurological symptoms not mentions here that is very scarcely is much worse than I thought and was investigating since fall 2020 and I had min 13 years. 13 years ago my mom was killed (I made and audio recently of my dad admitting it wasnt cancer and it was premeditated. I was committed against my will for the crime of contacting a lawyer to get power of attorney. Audio goes over all that and more. ) lost my home, most of my possessions, my caiman died the day before the zoo was going to take him. Had to give up my pet ram who my dad still cries over. (Them not being smart or good pets is a myth. He was smarter than my current dogs. My dogs are very smart but they do show deductive reasoning, verbal commands without training, and could unlock doors.)
And I went to work for a company so bad it would be pages to explain.
Well one note explains that went I was fired I was told stuff I really should have contacted a lawyer. Not just for wrongful termination. And 7 years early I did contact a lawyer. Both are related and I dont think I should share.
Anyway. I need to go thru her too and copy any health stuff I said and go back to my neurologist. Not sure what else they can do. Never have I had so many tests. One involving John Hopkins in Baltimore called a tilt test had three cardiologist tell me what the test results showed is impossible. Between them a pain specialist, kidneys specialist, ER, and neurologist (and still need two more doctors) I had 19 non-ER x-rays and at least 4 more in the ER. 2 CT scans (one out patient for my brain. The other my arteries to see if I was dying in the ER), two ultra sounds, I think only one MRI, feel heart test work up and lost count have many EKGs, and EEG, and that tilt test. I think I may have others because I went to urgent care so much I lost count.
Thats just this year.
After that and two seasons last year they have no idea what is going on other than due to my PCP fucking up I got resistant hypertension and almost died.
Im seeing a pain over a mystery (I have an idea now. Going for an investigation after more tests to see if I can have surgery to kill nerves). I no longer can take muscle relaxers or NSAIDs.
So my days are horrible. Average 3 hours of sleep a night. Most is in the bath tub. Im on a powerful sedative that I have to take religiously 3 times a day for my blood pressure to get down to the lower stage two hypertension. After my doctors fuck up until I was back on the medication she took me off of (so piss and I ranted too much) I had blood pressure 230s/120s. Took 8 hours to lower it back to stage to in the ER and stayed over night.
Forums and Fetlife are turning out to be good to get easy access to my health that I now know more than normal memory issues I had in 2008 (this is documented) amnesia and somehow after Feb 2017 I got amnesia against. Thats why Im only been back about a month or two.
Was in the ER 8 times this year. Not related to COVID. 2 was due to almost dying. The last one was the first time I heard my dad cry because he thought I was which they lead me to believe. 5 of them was due to another doctor fuck up. I did legal reasons wish I went one time but didnt because Im stupid. (Long story and most I cant talk about but I likely was almost murdered too. Its a long story. But this forum isnt encrypted. That had nothing to do with my health issues. ER would have been needed for evidence).
Fetlife notes that I didnt know exists let me know my neurological symptoms not mentions here that is very scarcely is much worse than I thought and was investigating since fall 2020 and I had min 13 years. 13 years ago my mom was killed (I made and audio recently of my dad admitting it wasnt cancer and it was premeditated. I was committed against my will for the crime of contacting a lawyer to get power of attorney. Audio goes over all that and more. ) lost my home, most of my possessions, my caiman died the day before the zoo was going to take him. Had to give up my pet ram who my dad still cries over. (Them not being smart or good pets is a myth. He was smarter than my current dogs. My dogs are very smart but they do show deductive reasoning, verbal commands without training, and could unlock doors.)
And I went to work for a company so bad it would be pages to explain.
Well one note explains that went I was fired I was told stuff I really should have contacted a lawyer. Not just for wrongful termination. And 7 years early I did contact a lawyer. Both are related and I dont think I should share.
Anyway. I need to go thru her too and copy any health stuff I said and go back to my neurologist. Not sure what else they can do. Never have I had so many tests. One involving John Hopkins in Baltimore called a tilt test had three cardiologist tell me what the test results showed is impossible. Between them a pain specialist, kidneys specialist, ER, and neurologist (and still need two more doctors) I had 19 non-ER x-rays and at least 4 more in the ER. 2 CT scans (one out patient for my brain. The other my arteries to see if I was dying in the ER), two ultra sounds, I think only one MRI, feel heart test work up and lost count have many EKGs, and EEG, and that tilt test. I think I may have others because I went to urgent care so much I lost count.
Thats just this year.
After that and two seasons last year they have no idea what is going on other than due to my PCP fucking up I got resistant hypertension and almost died.
Im seeing a pain over a mystery (I have an idea now. Going for an investigation after more tests to see if I can have surgery to kill nerves). I no longer can take muscle relaxers or NSAIDs.
So my days are horrible. Average 3 hours of sleep a night. Most is in the bath tub. Im on a powerful sedative that I have to take religiously 3 times a day for my blood pressure to get down to the lower stage two hypertension. After my doctors fuck up until I was back on the medication she took me off of (so piss and I ranted too much) I had blood pressure 230s/120s. Took 8 hours to lower it back to stage to in the ER and stayed over night.
Forums and Fetlife are turning out to be good to get easy access to my health that I now know more than normal memory issues I had in 2008 (this is documented) amnesia and somehow after Feb 2017 I got amnesia against. Thats why Im only been back about a month or two.
I’m stlll BFF’s with Whitney. She just don’t use twitter any more and is retired. This is a temporary signature. I need to think of a new one. Maybe I’ll ask Teddi.
